It is not a habit but a factual acceptance that I see my life as completely failed and ruined, mostly by myself. There’s is a little hope for me. Here I present you an instinctual proof of that.
While I was having a little chat with a friend, he sent me a motivational-style image. So the chat goes on like this.
Friend: (sends image)
Me: Haha, overwhelmingly true!
Friend: Where do you see yourself?
Me: Watching from behind the bike.
This is the original screenshot of the event, in Turkish. I still keep it as a countermeasure for fake motivations that may invade my mind. I am yet to find a truer motivation for life, for everything; for anything.